This Is The Problem

I hate myself. Because i always do the same routine everyday. Everyday and everyday its still the same and it didn't change at all. Sleeping, eating and reading novel. This is the life that i have to face after my spm? oh no no please no. Its freaking boring right now. What about work? Haihh actually i don't like to do that kind of thing and yet i don't even have money. Why i have to work for other people and listen all their directions? And to be on time. Err.. i don't like that kind of things.
Kalau boleh saya nak masok sekolah balik boleh tak? Boleh tak kalau saya nak kena buat nota2 semua, kena buat homework. Saya rindu dekat kawan2 rindu dekat 5Berkat. Saya nak pakai baju sekolah pakai tudung sekolah sekali heheee :) Alahai kenapa ea? Bila dulu2 tak sabar nak habis sekolah tapi sekarang rasa nak masok sekolah lah pulak huuuuuuuuuu :'(

Aku Buta

aah betol lah agaknya aku buta
kau tetap berdiri tegak depan aku
tapi aku tetap buta
kau lambai
tapi aku pandang orang lain
yaa aku buta lah tu
kau tetap berdiri disamping aku
aku tak nampak 
aah memang aku dah buta!
hati orang lain aku boleh nilai
tapi hati kau sorang susah aku nak nilai
haishh

hmm stupid feeling -___-

i hate this feeling
i hate when people keep saying you name in front of me. i hate when i have to wait for you all the time. i hate when you always give me your nonsense excuses. i hate it when you ignore me although i like to ignore you. i hate when there many people especially woman are around you. i like to hear you laugh but now i hate it. i hate when im serious and you making jokes. i hate when you call me 'sayang' or anything. i hate when you are trying to make me happy. shit i hate it! you maybe don't even no that i hate everything about you. because sometime you don't relise that i always there for you


so this is mean that i love you? err stupid feeling